Living life in recluse Lonely that's my excuse Been wasting my youth Pour some dirty sprite and get loose Said we had a spark but I ain't no Zeus She came over hit a home run No first base when I'm Babe Ruth Been keeping it in solitary Involuntary, she used Me as an accessory Now you last as a memory You can never get to me I know they wanna see the end of me My destiny is harder to find Than jealousy (than jealousy) Need some venting Stand out Never been good at blending (whew) You never know what's intended When your heart is still mending I'm running, I'm running To my unending She stay in my mind free renting Living life in recluse Lonely that's my excuse Been wasting my youth Pour some dirty sprite and get loose Said we had a spark but I ain't no Zeus Love or lust why can't I ever choose I wont ever loose, (yeah) I wont ever loose, (yeah, yeah) Until I fall into my tomb Why am I being used Searching for clues They disturbing the peace Can never feel at ease Parasites I see vividly In my dreams (dreams) Now all I see, around me green Only the realist in my team (In my team) Smoke leave you boxed Like a hoodie Supreme Been a sad junkie Since my late teens (Late teens, late teens) Poppin perks like its the eighties And lately, sober thoughts Driving me crazy But baby, I only think About you when I'm wavy I couldn't change you So I had to change me (Change me b*tch) Maybe you'll notice Can't afford much So I had to focus Love money and drugs Sex is just a bonus Now you back claiming you know us Can't relate in different Ways we are broken (broken) Living life in recluse Lonely that's my excuse Been wasting my youth Pour some dirty sprite and get loose Said we had a spark but I ain't no Zeus Love or lust why can't I ever choose Keeping it up I think imma OD But when I'm on the perks I feel like G-OD If only, I could handle being By my lonely Then the drugs, would not Consume me